papercutshandmade:

(by rocketrictic)

This is just going out into the void; I don’t expect anyone to read it. I don’t really remember the last time I saw a good friend and had a good conversation. I am tired of people casually throwing an “I love you!” at me when they rarely check in to see how I am doing. Granted, I have been terrible at communication this summer too, but I just feel like people don’t really want to talk to me, so why should I bother them? And besides that, what do I have to talk about besides work. Because that’s pretty much all I do is work. And when I’m not working, I’m sitting at home because my friends are out with their other friends who live closer, or they are on vacation, or taking a road trip. Working two tourist jobs doesn’t really allow me to take a vacation, and I don’t really get invited to go anywhere or do anything. And when I do, I can’t because everyone thinks that letting me know short notice is okay. Um, no. I have to ask for days off at least a month in advance. Thank the Lord August is arriving tomorrow. Thank the Lord, only two more weeks until my “days off” are actually going to work at my GR job and seeing Hillsong United in concert. Thank the Lord that there are less than 4 weeks until I move back to GR and get out of here. I’m tired of this place. I’m tired of feeling like I can’t talk to anyone. I’m just tired.